"The people you love the most hurt you the most."–Self
For the first time in my life I know I’m going to break someone’s heart.
I’m more attracted to your friends than I am to you.
I sound like a bitch but you aren’t good enough for me.
I need someone better suited for my needs.
Like your friends.
They didn’t show interest in me, no one made a move.
You got me because you made a move but you don’t get to keep me.
I can hear their internal groans on not getting me first.
At least one friend of yours who I vibed with the night we all met:
He’s the kind of guy who would be/is interested in me for sure, and he didn’t make a move. Not enough for me to give in.
I can feel the attraction in the air between us.
I can smell the “oh fuck this could’ve been my girl and I lost her to tommy”
Because all the signs are there.
Chemistry like that can only exist with two people.
Then there’s Anthony.
It kills me to have tried with him and ended up being turned away when I put in the effort.
But was it that? Or was he just busy with school? Because I truly think we can connect. Him more than any of your friends.
He’s an artist and I’m a sucker for those.
I fall hard for them because the amount of pleasure I get is unlike anything in the world.
We have a similar passion and that’ll attract anyone like crazy.
So what do I do?
How do I transition this situation to being friends with you and dating one of your friends ha.
How do I do this without looking like the devil?
Sorry tommy, I hardly even talked about you in this.
It just shows that I need to let you go.
"It does not matter if a boundary makes sense to you. It does not matter if it seems inconsequential to you. Boundaries are the prerogative of the person who sets them. You do not know that person’s story, and they are not obligated to justify their boundaries to you. That touch that seems insignificant to you may be uncomfortably intimate for someone else. That interaction that is fine with others may trigger someone’s PTSD. You do not know more about someone than they know about themselves. Trust that they know what they are doing when they set a boundary with you, even if you do not understand why.
When someone sets a boundary with you they are saying “no.” No means no. Do not push people on their boundaries or ask for explanations that are not readily given. Doing these things indicates that you do not respect their boundaries. For many people, saying “no” once, setting a boundary, is difficult enough. Do not put them in a position where they must repeatedly do so. No means no the first time. Pushing them on it suggests a hope that you can wear them down, which is problematic at best and predatory at worst. No means no."